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Saturday, October 3, 2009
Happy Birthday Aishani!
The perfect tribute would be able to say how much you mean to me. It would be able to translate various shapes on the keyboard into your actions and words that inspire and calm me. The perfect tribute would put a radiant smile on your face, just like the times when i smiled because of you. This, most likely won't be a perfect tribute- it's a figment of the masterpiece, the reflection of an image in a dusty mirror. But, it's the best way i could possibly think of telling you how much i care.
I thought for half an hour about what to say to fill up the white space here, but then i realized. There is nothing left to be said. Every single piece of advice, encouragement, love, has already been expressed or written. Everything i want you to know, you most likely already do. And that's the beauty that the friendship between you, Keish and I share. That things don't need to be said out loud to be heard.
You can hear me worrying, even though i never ever say it aloud. You can sense our sadness in the silences and the joy in our eyes. And despite knowing that you read us like a book, that all our horrible thoughts can be extracted from our brains, we trust you with it. We trust you with ourselves, and the fact that you still love us in spite of it only makes us much more open to who we are. And that in itself is a gift, one of many you have bestowed.
So thank you Aishbo, for being such a carebear. I won't make any jokes about your skin today. Just know that "Though i know i'll never lose affection, for people and things that went before, I know i'll often stop and think about them. In my life i love you more". Time, is nothing.
Love, Nat.