It's wonderful having the load of textbooks, worksheets, and memorising taken right off your shoulders, being able to look outside and not wonder whether the nitrogen cycle will be tested, or what the effects of Air pollution are. (I'm so glad geog's over, had an awful time memorising the entire textbook.)

btw, NAT. you shouldn't be happy, you still have chinese to go!! ahaha, and I've been here rejoicing for the past month because we got the hindi teacher to stop coming!!!! sigh free periods are wonderful.

so....now all that's left to do is well relax. Kinda feels empty cuz when I have nothing to do, I'm not sitting down with a textbook, or locking myself in a room telling ppl not to come in. Come to think of it, this was the time we were all dreaming of just yesterday, and the week before that too. well, I think now's much better anyways. Haha.

Now we can all happily happily debate debate debate all the way till the year ends.

this is what insane ppl do when they get too tired of typing on msn. Nat and I ended up having an entire msn convo today, which was in emoticons. then we switched to handwritten messages, which were actually just drawings. (I drew an egg and she drew a chicken, so intellectual, wondering which one comes first.)

The fact that convos can lead to such random topics like egg and chicken really intrigues me. ahahaha. Then we got tired and the entire convo became in CAPS. so weird, and loud. lol.

well, my art is horrible, so I'm sorry if it was hard to understand nat. I have to learn to paint properly, my art exam is the day after tomorrow (if you're wondering, I don't regard art as a proper exam. so for me, exams are still overrrr)

oh gosh, GAHH hate art.

I can't paint for nuts. :(

okay I didn't know what to call this, but somehow it kinda just feels like all these feelings are a splat nowadays. sigh sigh. :)

Huh. It's kinda become something I think about every day now. well you can't help it when the first thing you see if you look out of the window is the entire RJC campus. and it gets me thinking, about well, what I'm doing. yeahh I've tried using a telescope from my bedroom before (for the sky at first) then I lowered it and looked into RJ, and saw people studying in the classrooms. like 2 hours later, the same people were there. So it shows, they're there for a reason, and also because they deserve it. I was hoping maybe a few years down the road, I'll see someone I know in those classrooms, like Nat or Keisha. Maybe I'll see them debating. Haha, then I can shout HI across to them. and they'll wave back haha.

But sometimes, I look around and see the wonderful white-and-blue-ness of our MG, and think not of the future but of now. Think of how we ought not go around searching for what may take a lifetime to find, but create and discover what life has in store for us. Then we take it into our stride and actually make something out of it. okay so maybe I think of a few days later haha. Should I really do this?

But what really bothers me sometimes, is the fact that I won't be part of it all anymore and my name might just fade away. I wonder why I'm doing this. I know it's not me.

I desperately need a fortune cookie. Like in dire need of one, I waaaant. GAHHH, haven't had one in ages. I don't know if it's the fortune or the cookie I need, I just need both. And the facebook ones aren't good enough.

I shall go and plan what I'm going to do every day now that exams are over!! :)

love,

aishani.